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Conversions Among Westerners Increasing

January 27, 2012 in Revert stories

The Irish actor Liam Neeson, who was raised Catholic, reportedly is considering converting to Islam.

While Neeson may nor may not be serious, the trend towards conversion to Islam has apparently been accelerating in recent years in the West.

This might seem like an odd development, given the relentlessly negative image that Western media has of Islam, especially since the Sept. 11 terrorist attacks and the subsequent wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.

Neeson told The Sun newspaper that the thought of conversion came to him while making a film in Turkey.

“The Call to Prayer happens five times a day and for the first week it drives you crazy, and then it just gets into your spirit and it’s the most beautiful, beautiful thing,” he said.

He added: “I was reared a Catholic but I think every day we ask ourselves, not consciously, what are we doing on this planet? What’s it all about? I’m constantly reading books on God or the absence of God and atheism.”

There are many reasons why a Western Christian might convert to Islam – some because they want to marry a Muslim person and wish to make such a union easier; others because they have a spiritual beckoning towards Islam.

Neeson would appear to be part of the latter group.

Should be embrace Islam, he would not be alone.

According Faith Matters, a multi-faith organization in Great Britain, there are now in excess of 100,000 Muslim converts in the United Kingdom — having doubled in just a decade — with more than 5,200 adopting the faith in 2010.

Moreover, the average Muslim convert in the U.K. is described as a “27-year-old white woman” — quite surprising, given the widely held notion that Islam is oppressive to women.

“Converts do not represent a devious fifth column determined to undermine the Western way of life – this is a group of normal people united in their adherence to a religion which they, for the most part, see as perfectly compatible with Western life,” Faith Matters said.

The survey suggested that many British converts are appalled by the immorality and vulgarity of modern society, including alcohol and drunkenness, a “lack of morality and sexual permissiveness” and “unrestrained consumerism.”

Kevin Brice, of Swansea University in Wales and also affiliated with Faith Matters, explained to British media that Muslim coverts face some unique problems.

“White Muslim converts are caught between two increasingly distant camps,” he said. “Their best relationships remain with other converts, because of their shared experiences, while there is very little difference between the quality of their relationship with other Muslims or non-Muslims. My research also found converts came in two types: Some are converts of convenience, who adopt the religion because of a life situation such as meeting a Muslim man, although the religion has little discernible impact on their day-to-day lives. For others it is a conversion of conviction where they feel a calling and embrace the religion robustly.”

Brice added: “That’s not to say the two are mutually exclusive – sometimes converts start out on their religious path through convenience and become converts of conviction later on.”

One of the most famous Muslim converts in Britain is probably the TV presenter and author Kristiane Backer.

She once told UK media: “I converted to Islam in 1995 after [Pakistani politician and former cricketer] Imran Khan introduced me to the faith. At the time I was a presenter for MTV. I used to have all the trappings of success, yet I felt an inner emptiness and somewhat dissatisfied in my life. The entertainment industry is very much about ‘if you’ve got it, flaunt it”, which is the exact opposite to the more inward-oriented spiritual attitude of my new faith. My value system changed and God became the centre point of my life and what I was striving towards.”

Backer further said: “I recognize some new converts feel isolated but, despite there being even fewer resources when I converted than there are now, it isn’t so much an issue I’ve faced. I’ve always felt welcomed and embraced by the Muslims I met and developed a circle of friends and teachers. It helps living in London, because there is so much to engage in as part of the Muslim community. Yet, even in the capital you can be stared at on the Tube for wearing a headscarf. I usually don’t wear one in the West except when praying. I wear the scarf in front of my heart though!”

Lauren Booth, sister-in-law of former Prime Minister Tony Blair, is also a prominent convert to Islam. Although half-Jewish by birth, Booth’s conversion appeared to have something to do with her passion for Palestinian rights.

Of course, on the dark side are such names like notorious shoe-bomber Richard Reid and July 7 bomber Germaine Lindsay. However, converts who turn to extremism represent an extremely tiny minority.

Fiyaz Mughal, director of Faith Matters, said in a statement: “Conversion to Islam has been stigmatized by the media and wrongly associated with extremist ideologies and discriminatory cultural practices.”

In the U.S., the number of Muslim converts is unknown, although clearly the overall Islamic population in the country is rising. Overall, there were estimated to be about 2.6 million Muslims in the U.S. as of 2010.

A survey by the Pew Research Center back in 2007 indicated that two-thirds of all Islamic converts in the U.S. came from a Protestant background.

Moreover, 60 percent of all converts are black – like the three most famous American converts of all: civil rights activist Malcolm X (formerly Malcolm Little), boxing champ Muhammad Ali (Cassius Clay) and basketball player Kareem Abdul-Jabbar (Lew Alcindor).

In the U.S. government, there are two elected Muslims in Congress, both of them African-American converts: Rep. Keith Ellison, D-Minn., was the first and Rep. Andre Carson, D-Ind., was the second.

There has apparently never been any other Muslims serving in high political office in the U.S. While there are a number of Arab-Americans who have risen to prominent political positions (Rep. Darrell Issa, R-Calif., and former Senator Majority Leader George Mitchell, D-Maine, for example), they were all Christians.

Pew Research predicts that the Muslim population in the United States will more than double to 6 million by 2030, partly due to the high birth rates among Islamic peoples. By that time, they will represent 1.7 percent of the total population, equal in number to American Jews.

“There are 4,000 mosques in the city. Some are just stunning and it really makes me think about becoming a Muslim.”

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Hollywood actor Liam Neeson considering converting to Islam

January 26, 2012 in Revert stories

Liam Neeson is considering giving up his Roman Catholic beliefs and becoming a Muslim.

The actor, 59, admitted that Islamic prayer “got into his spirit” while filming in Istanbul.

“The call to prayer happens five times a day, and for the first week, it drives you crazy, and then it just gets into your spirit, and it’s the most beautiful, beautiful thing,” he told The Sun.

“There are 4000 mosques in the city. Some are just stunning, and it really makes me think about becoming a Muslim.”

Neeson was raised in Northern Ireland as a devout Roman Catholic and was named after the local priest.

But the star – whose wife, Natasha Richardson, died aged 45 in a skiing accident in 2009 – has spoken about challenges to his faith.

“I was reared a Catholic, but I think every day we ask ourselves, not consciously, what are we doing on this planet? What’s it all about? I’m constantly reading books on God or the absence of God and atheism,” he said.

His latest movie, The Grey, about an oil-drilling team that crashes in freezing Alaska, is set to be released on February 16.

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Free eBook: The Man in the Red Underpants

November 17, 2011 in Revert stories

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THE JOURNEY BEGINS

I’m pretty sure you’re not going to like this. Probably not one bit. It talks about all sorts of things that a lot of us spend a lot of time trying to avoid. Like death! Yes, that’s right, death. Death, judge­ment, hellfire and paradise (or is it all pie in the sky?), the meaning of life and of course, the big one – is there really a God, or is it all a delusion? Just the sort of things you’d try your utmost to avoid thinking about. And what has this got to do with the man in the red underpants anyway?

I want you to come with me on a journey. It’s not a long one, but on the way we are going to encounter some very interesting and probably scary things, and things that you won’t want to believe even though they make sense. Some of you are chickening out already; some of you will put this down and not even finish it, and some of you will turn you noses up in disgust, and that is very, very sad because you’ll miss out on the most important thing in your life ever!

There are some of you who will read the whole thing and perhaps even agree with it, but never get round to doing anything about it, and that is both really sad and really bad. Well, I told you this is going to have stuff you won’t like! But somewhere, some of you will see it all through. You’ll think a little, or a lot, and then you’ll do something truly amazing with your life, you’ll accept the inevi­table conclusions of reason, take a deep breath (at least mentally) and decide to make a commitment that will transform you in wonderful ways. As scary as it seems, and once you do that, things will make even more sense.

OK, enough of the hype, let’s get down to the nitty gritty. Let’s begin the journey and step aboard our vehicle; reason and common sense.

What would you do if a man in a pair of red underpants came knocking on your door saying that he’d come to read the gas me­ter?

Yes, I am serious, what would you do? Actually, what you actually would do is not so important here as what process you would use and what faculties you would employ to come to a decision about this man and his claim. Would you believe him without thinking and let him into your house? Just ‘have faith?’ Or would you think about the situation, ask some questions and apply reason? I’m pretty sure it’s the last one. Even if you told him to “Get lost you weirdo!”, you’d use reason, logic and common sense to make sense of the man in red underpants, just as we do for most things that happen in our lives.

Now, before we go any further I need you to agree with me on one thing. If you don’t agree with me on this, there’s isn’t much point in going any further. We need to agree that the world we live in is real and you and me and everything around us really does exist and is not the product of a computer generated illusory world, or some dream that you happen to be in. Now I know that I can’t actually prove this, and that it really is possible that all we see around us is a dream or an illusion but how does that help us? If we think THAT, then we could never make sense of anything, and even if we did accept that, we’d still use our reason to try and make sense of it and would still inevitably have to accept what we see as being real in some sense.

So, if you’re with me on this; that the world is real and that what we see, smell, touch, hear, and taste is real. That our senses send information to our brain and we use our mind to make sense of what is going on, then let’s use this process to make sense of this life, world, universe and everything.

Now, there are some things we might call ‘universals’ because just about everybody as far as we know would agree on them. In fact, these ideas are so basic they are part of what makes us human, and if someone didn’t agree to it we’d probably think they were mad. For example, the statement “part of something is less than the whole” is a universal. It’s common to all humans, that’s why we call it ‘common’ sense. It’s so obvious it doesn’t need explaining. Agree with me so far? OK. Here is another…’something doesn’t come from nothing’. And how about ‘order doesn’t spontaneously arise from chaos’?

What is there in the totality of human experience that would lead us to believe that something comes from nothing or that order just spontaneously arises from chaos?

Well that’s right! Nothing. Actually what we consistently experi­ence is that where there is order, form and systems, something has imposed the order, the form and systems. The more complex and ordered the systems, the more functional the form, the greater the level of intelligence behind it.

So here are two truths we can use to make sense of the world, the universe and life. Universal human experience tells us that when we find things working according to systems, laws and patterns, some­thing has made those systems, laws and patterns. That is why an archaeologist can find a piece of pottery in the earth and be sure and certain that some people, whom he has never seen, made this piece of pottery. In fact, he might be able to tell us a whole range of things about those people, their culture and state of technology from this one piece of pottery. He knows that this was designed, not as a product of some random movements of the earth, sun and natural forest fire that somehow came together to produce this piece of baked clay Perhaps it is possible this might have hap­pened, but it’s not likely. In fact, the more that person can see of this pottery the more unlikely this possibility seems and the more certain he or she would be of its being designed on purpose (if they even had any doubt in the first place!)

Let’s take another example of something most of us have and use on a regular basis: a mobile phone. Your mobile phone is com­posed of a few basic elements. Plastic, glass, silicon for the chip, and some precious metals. Plastic comes from oil, and glass and silicon from sand. So basically what you are holding in your hand is oil and sand. Now, what if I told you that I was walking along in the desert of Arabia (lots of oil and sand) and picked up a mobile phone which I found lying there… a product of billions of years of random events? The wind blew, the sun shone, the rain fell, light­ning struck, the oil bubbled, the camel trod and after millions and millions of years the mobile phone formed itself. And naturally I pick it up, push the call button…”Hi, Mom!”

Is there a chance that this could have randomly formed itself through natural processes? However remotely possible, most of us would simply not accept this as a reasonable explanation.

Why then would we accept such an explanation for our universe and the life within it? Even if we accept evolution as a process, the idea that life evolved merely as a series of random events is dif­ficult to accept as a reasonable explanation. Even the most basic human cell is more complicated than a mobile phone! At least the theory of evolution attempts to offer some explanation of how this might have happened, but the idea that the universe is a prod­uct of some random events has no comparable explanation, and the laws, systems and forms that shape the universe are actually much more complex than those that govern biological life!

Let’s take the example of our earth and solar system. The earth rotates on its axis once every twenty-four hours. Imagine the earth was spinning really slowly. A day or night is say 30 or 40 years long instead of 24 hours. One part of the earth’s surface would be ex­posed to sunlight for that time, and the other in darkness. So the earth’s surface would be both super heated and super cooled. Or, if we were fractionally (in cosmological terms) closer to the sun or further away, it would be too hot or too cold. Or, if the composition of the gases in the atmosphere was not exactly the right blend of oxygen, carbon dioxide and nitrogen, or if there was no ozone to filter out the harmful effects of the sun’s radiation, without these optimal conditions it is difficult to see how life could exist.

When we look at the Big Bang theory that explains the origins of the universe, one might fairly ask “since when do explosions form intricate and balanced systems and complex life forms?” Yet, that is what some people propose happened with the universe and the Big Bang! One might respond that this is a very simplistic ap­proach but it just so happens that science too is suggesting that the laws that govern the universe are so fine tuned that life could not exist without this degree of fine tuning.

This can be observed in what are called the constants of nature, of which there are quite a few, but let’s concentrate on four of the most well known forces: the strong nuclear force, the weak nuclear force, the electromagnetic force, and gravity. Two of these, the strong and weak electromagnetic forces, are responsible for the production of carbon, the element upon which all known life is based. The forces cooperate in such a way as to create an equi­librium of energy levels, which enables the production of carbon from the fusing of three helium atoms. For three helium atoms to collide and create carbon is very unlikely because under normal circumstances, the energies would not match up and the three helium atoms would come apart before they had time to fuse into carbon. But if there is a statistically unusual match of the energies, then the process is much faster. The slightest change to either the strong or weak electromagnetic forces would alter the energy levels, resulting in greatly reduced production of carbon and an ultimately uninhabitable universe.

Consider also the strength of gravity. After the Big Bang billions of years ago the matter in the universe was randomly distributed. There were no planets, galaxies or stars, just atoms floating around in the dark void of space. As the universe began to expand, gravity pulled ever so gently on the atoms, gathering them into clumps that eventually became stars and galaxies. What is important is that the force of gravity had to be just right. If gravity was a bit weaker, the atoms would have been so widely distributed that they would never have been gathered into galaxies, stars and planets. If the force of gravity was a bit stronger, the atoms would have been pulled together into one single mass and then the Big Bang would have simply become the Big Crunch. The strength of grav­ity has to be just right for stars to form. So what is ‘just right’? Well, imagine your weight was heavier or lighter by one billionth of a gram! That’s the sort of fraction of difference we are talking about for the universe to be so different that there would be no galaxies, stars, planets or life. Makes shedding a few kilos seem simple, doesn’t it? It’s strange how intelligent, educated humans can’t seem to shed a bit of weight in order to live longer but the universe can seem to organise itself into the optimal conditions for life through coincidence!

And that’s not all! Let’s take a closer look at the universe’s rate of expansion after the Big Bang. If the rate of expansion was greater and the early universe expanded faster, the matter in the universe would have become so diffused that gravity could never have gath­ered it into stars and galaxies. If the rate of expansion was slower, gravity would have overwhelmed the expansion and pulled all the matter back into a black hole. If the rate of expansion one second after the Big Bang had been slower by even one part in a hundred thousand million million, the universe would have re-collapsed before it ever reached its present size! In fact, the expansion rate was just right, so that stars could exist in the universe.

Another example of this fine tuning is the density of the universe. In order for it to grow in a life-sustaining manner, the universe must have maintained an extremely precise overall density. The precision of density must have been so great that a change of one part in 1015 (i.e. 0.0000000000001%) would have resulted in a collapse, or big crunch, occurring far too early for life to have developed, or there would have been an expansion so rapid that no stars, galaxies or life could have formed.

Remember our mobile phone in the desert?

Isn’t it much more reasonable to conclude that the universe and life are a result of wilful intelligent design?

After all, what are the options?

Could it really have just come from nothing? And if that is the case, then why not apply that to everything else in life? The man in the red pants, maybe he just spontaneously appeared!

Could it have created itself? Well we just don’t attribute to the collection of stars and galaxies that we call the universe the ability to design and systemise. Surely that needs intelligence and will?

So if common sense and reason point so conclusively towards the existence of intelligent and wilful design, what other conclusions can we come to through the use of reason?

Well, one conclusion one might certainly reach is that the nature of the source of this intelligence and will must be different in nature from the universe it created.

Why is that? Because if it was the same, then all we would have is more of the same i.e. more creation, and then one might rightly ask, so what created that? Surely something more intelligent and wilful, and then of course we would ask the same question about that…what created it? And we would go on and on forever look­ing for the intelligence and will behind the intelligence and will, a creator creating a creator creating a creator ad infinitum! There is a good reason why things can’t be that way, and this is best ex­plained through an example.

Imagine a sniper who has acquired his designated target and ra­dios through to HQ to get permission to shoot. HQ however, tells the sniper to hold on while they seek permission from higher up. So the guy higher up seeks permission from the guy even higher up and so on and so on.

If this keeps going on, will the sniper ever get to shoot the target? Of course not!

He’ll keep on waiting while someone is waiting for a person higher up to give the order. There has to be a place or person from where the command is issued, a place where there is no higher up.

So our example illustrates why there is a rational flaw in the idea that there might be creators creating creators ad infinitum… We can’t have creators creating creators forever, or else, just as the sniper will never shoot, the creation will never get created. But the creation is here. It exists. So we can dismiss the idea of an infinite regression of causes as being an irrational proposition.

So what is the alternative?

The alternative is a first cause. An uncaused cause!

We could conclude that the nature of the intelligent and wilful force behind the universe, life and everything must have a dif­ferent nature from the creation, and as we have seen, there are compelling reasons to do so.

So… if the creation is needy, the Creator should be self-sufficient.

And if the creation is temporary, the Creator should be eternal.

And if the creation is confined by space and time, the Creator should be free of space and time.

And if the creation is common, the Creator should be unique.

And it follows reasonably that there could only be one unique, eternal, self-sufficient being unconfined by space and time, for if there were more than one then these attributes could not apply. How could there be two or three eternal beings, or two beings unconstrained by space or time?

This is why it makes so much sense to believe in One Unique Eternal and Self-Sufficient Creator.

Common sense and reason lead easily, or perhaps even inevitably, to the conclusion that the universe has been created by a transcen­dent being unlike in essence to anything that we know.

This of course makes it difficult to understand much more about this Creator through reason, and that’s why some people stop right there.

But our journey doesn’t end here, in fact in many ways it only be­gins. We still have so many questions unanswered, so many issues unresolved.

Chapter 2
UNANSWERED QUESTIONS

  • Why is there suffering in the world?
  • If there is a Creator, why does this Creator let bad things happen?
  • What is the purpose of life?
  • Why are we here and what is it all for, and where are we going?
  • Is there life after death?
  • Is there some way to know more about this Creator?

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The Independent: Women & Islam – The rise and rise of the convert

November 10, 2011 in Revert stories

Three-quarters of Britons who become Muslims are female. Now a major new study has shed light on the difficulties they face in adjusting to their new life.

Record numbers of young, white British women are converting to Islam, yet many are reporting a lack of help as they get used to their new religion, according to several surveys.

As Muslims celebrate the start of the religious holiday of Eid today and hundreds of thousands from around the world converge on Mecca for the haj, it emerged that of the 5,200 Britons who converted to Islam last year, more than half are white and 75 per cent of them women.

In the past 10 years some 100,000 British people have converted to Islam, of whom some three-quarters are women, according to the latest statistics. This is a significant increase on the 60,000 Britons in the previous decade, according to researchers based at Swansea University.

While the number of UK converts accelerates, many of the British women who adopt Islam say they have a daily struggle to assimilate their new beliefs within a wider culture that both implicitly and explicitly positions them as outsiders, regardless of their Western upbringing.

More than three-quarters told researchers they had experienced high levels of confusion after conversion, due to the conflicting ways Islam was presented to them. While other major religions have established programmes for guiding new believers through the rigours of their faith, Islam still lacks any such network, especially outside the Muslim hubs of major cities.

Many mosques still bar women from worship or provide scant resources for their needs, forcing them to rely on competing cultural and ideological interpretations within books or the internet for religious support.

A recent study of converts in Leicester, for example, found that 93 per cent of mosques in the region recognised they lacked services for new Muslims, yet only 7 per cent said they were making efforts to address the shortfall.

Many of the young women – the average age of conversion is 27 – are also coming to terms with experiences of discrimination for the first time, despite the only visible difference being a headscarf. Yet few find easy sanctuary within the established Muslim population, with the majority forming their closest bonds with fellow converts rather than born Muslims.

Kevin Brice, author of the Swansea study A Minority Within a Minority, said to be the most comprehensive study of British Muslim converts, added: “White Muslim converts are caught between two increasingly distant camps. Their best relationships remain with other converts, because of their shared experiences, while there is very little difference between the quality of their relationship with other Muslims or non-Muslims.

“My research also found converts came in two types: some are converts of convenience, who adopt the religion because of a life situation such as meeting a Muslim man, although the religion has little discernible impact on their day-to-day lives. For others it is a conversion of conviction where they feel a calling and embrace the religion robustly.

“That’s not to say the two are mutually exclusive – sometimes converts start out on their religious path through convenience and become converts of conviction later on.”

Another finding revealed by the Leicester study was that despite Western portraits of Islam casting it as oppressive to women, a quarter of female converts were attracted to the religion precisely because of thestatus it affords them.

Some analysts have argued that dizzying social and cultural upheavals in Britain over the past decades have meant that far from adopting an alien way of life, some female Muslim converts are re-embracing certain aspects of mid-20th-century Britain, such as rigid gender demarcation, rather than feeling expected to juggle career and family.

The first established Muslim communities started in Britain in the 1860s, when Yemani sailors and Somali labourers settled around the ports of London, Cardiff, Liverpool and Hull. Many married local women who converted to Islam, often suffering widespread discrimination as a result.

They also acted as a bridge between the two cultures, encouraging understanding among indigenous dwellers and helping to integrate the Muslim community they had joined. Today, there is growing recognition among community leaders that the latest generation of female converts has an equally vital role to play in fostering dialogue between an increasingly secular British majority and a minority religion, as misunderstood as it is vilified.

Video: Islam is on the rise in Favela, Brazil

November 7, 2011 in Revert stories

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Mustafa Davis: Who Am I And How Did I Get Here?

October 8, 2011 in Revert stories

Award-winning Californian based film maker and photographer, Mustafa Davis shares his personal identity crises when faced with trying to explain the phenomenon of the ‘American Muslim’.

Mustafa Davis is founder of Cinemotion Media, and co-founder of the Ta’leef Collective. This post was originally published on MustafaDavis.com:

Recently, my Facebook posts about my American Muslim identity have caused a slight uproar from certain people who have taken it upon themselves to inform me who I am and who I am allowed to be. To inform me that it is either impossible for me to be an American Muslim or worse, that my loyalty to my religion is now somehow in question because of it. I’ve been referred to as an “Uncle Tom” that doesn’t care about oppressed people and likened to the Right Wing bigots that push policies to harm the disenfranchised. And all of this was decided about me by the mere fact that I said I was an “American Muslim.” I’ve decided to write this note so that there is no ambiguity about who I am and how I got here.

I’m a decendant of Black Africans who came to this country as slaves (enslaved Africans). Who were stripped of everything they knew and everything they were (including names, identity, culture, and religion). They left them without a single trace of dignity or honor. Not only did they take everything away from my ancestors, they erased our entire history. For years I have tried to get people to understand what this means, how this feels and how it is a permanent part of who we are (whether we are conscious of it or not). If one doesn’t know who they were, its nearly impossible to know who you are. I write this with tears in my eyes and with disbelief that the people who I have supposedly united with in GOD can be so crass and insensitive.

I was born in the Bay Area, California. My parents divorced when I was two years old and I moved with my mother to Sacramento and we lived in an impoverished neighborhood called Lincoln Village. I have no memories of my two parents together. I’ve tried many times over the years to try and conjure up at least one memory of my family living happily together, but unfortunately no such memory exists. My mother is German with blond hair and blue eyes. I am the only child she had with my black father and she remarried a white man which means all of my siblings are full white, making me the only black child in my family. I remember being teased by my black friends because I lived with a white family. I was called “Webster” and “Arnold” growing up (in reference to television sitcoms which depicted black children being raised by white families). My mother used to bring my birth certificate with her to sign me up for school and sports because they didn’t believe I was really her son.

I grew up poor as a latchkey child in a broken home. My mother worked as a waitress and my step-father worked for the local phone company. Arguments were the norm. Fists punching through walls, dishes breaking, yelling, and cursing were routine. My parents thought I was psychologically affected by being the only black child in a white family and so I saw my first psychiatrist at age 5. By the time I was 16 years old, I was on drugs, failing all my classes, and I was eventually kicked out of high school. My mother could no longer deal with me and sent me away to live with my biological father.

My father was an educated man but had recently lost his job. We spent the next two years living in different apartments and staying on couches at some of his friends houses. We were staying in a cockroach/rat infested halfway house and one day my father asked me to take a walk with him. We walked for about 4 hours (we didn’t have a car) to the Greyhound bus depot in downtown San Jose. He bought me a one way ticket to Sacramento and said very clearly to me: “I’ve been poor all my life and I can handle it. But I can’t watch as you go through it too. I’m sending you back to your mom until I can get on my feet again.” And he put me on the bus back to Sacramento. My mother told me that I could not stay with her (as it wasn’t possible for my step-father and I to be under the same roof). I had gotten so jacked up on drugs and other “less than favorable” activities that none of my friends wanted anything to do with me. I had nowhere to go. I was exhausted.

Tired of my lifestyle, tired of my family, but mostly I was tired of myself. I decided that I was done with the world and that it was time to check out. I took a bottle of muscle relaxants and a bottle of Tylenol, sat down on the kitchen floor and swallowed almost every single pill.

My sister came home from work early that day and and found me lying face down on the kitchen floor in a pool of saliva with a few pills scattered around me. She knew instantly what I had done and called my mother for help. My memories from this point on are blurred. Time was no longer linear. I remember my mother and sister dragging me to the bathroom and putting me in the bathtub filled with cold water and ice cubes to try and prevent me from falling asleep. My mother kept shoving her fingers down my throat to get me to vomit. It wasn’t working and I was fading very quickly. My next memory is arriving at the hospital. I was put on a gurney and rushed into the emergency room. I remember pushing the nurses off of me because I didn’t want them to help me. They eventually brought some nurses in to hold my arms and legs down as the doctor put a 1/2″ tube up my nose and down into my throat. They pumped charcoal into my stomach to counter the effect of the drugs. (The doctors later told me I was about 3 to 5 minutes away from complete cardiac arrest.)

My next memory is waking up in excruciating pain laying on a bed in the ICU (the tube was still in my nose and down in my throat). My mother was in the corner of the room crying and my first thought was “Damn… it didn’t work” (I was upset that I was still alive). By California law I was required to serve 3 months in Sutter Memorial Mental Institution and I hopped the fence and escaped on my first night. I was picked up about 3 hours later by the police, brought back and put in the maximum security unit. It was in this place that I saw people who were truly mentally disturbed. A girl who used to bang her head against the wall until she bled, a boy who would scratch the skin off of his cheeks, another who would pull off her own finger nails and sit with bloody hands. Others who walked around screaming at imaginary friends.

Within a couple weeks I decided that if I got out of that place that I would dedicate my life to helping people. It was the very first time in my life that I called on God for assistance. There were many things that led up to me wanting to end my life. But now as an adult looking back, I can admit that identity struggle played a major role.

Fast forward to age 24 when I converted to Islam. I thought that converting to Islam would help me with my search for identity but instead it execerbated the problem. I was told that I couldn’t be American because America was the land of disbelievers and Muslims could not emulate disbelievers. In fact, I was told that if I emulated them, I would be one of them and that the place for a “disbeliever” was in the hell-fire. So, I left America and made Hijra (migration) to Mauritania. I spent the next 11 years traveling the Muslim world in search of a culture that I could relate to and make my own so I could leave my “Americanness” behind and have a chance at getting to Paradise. It didn’t work.

It took me a long to realize that the very people who were telling (and continue to tell me) that I cannot be American, hail from Muslim majority countries that have very beautiful, rich cultures. They know who they are (regardless if they want to be it). They know who their ancestors were, what they did, how they lived. I’ve never had that luxury. I don’t know who my ancestors are. I don’t know if they were kings and queens or criminals. My history was erased. Other Muslims get to say “I am Afghani, Pakistani, Malaysian, Sudanese, Egyptian, Nigerian, Palestinian, Bosnian, Moroccan, Indian, Algerian, etc.” I will never be able to say that. “American” is not an ethnicity. It is a cultural identity. Black Americans have no cultural ties to our homeland. We cannot go back to Africa. We have no idea where in Africa to go? Are we from Nigeria? Senegal? Niger? Chad? Ivory Coast? Etc. We have no idea.

Black Americans don’t have any home other than America. We have no other place to go. America is the ONLY home we know. We were stripped of everything else. I most certainly do not praise American politics or its treatment of minorities and/or impoverished, disenfranchised communities. That would mean I agree with the enslavement of my own people. But when Muslims tell us that we cannot be American because that means we support ALL things America, it means they are telling us we cannot exist. I will say that again: it meansthey are telling us that WE CANNOT EXIST. They can always fall back on their rich cultural heritages (that are often mistakenly called Islamic cultures. They are not, they are merely cultures where the majority of the inhabitants are Muslims). But I don’t have that luxury or ability. America is the only culture I have to identify with. Telling me it’s not possible is pushing me into nonexistence. I don’t think people with such rich cultures and heritages fully understand what its like to not have that to fall back on.

My only recourse is either to reject American culture altogether and adopt some other culture (which all have nationalistic nuances just like America) or accept the elements of this society that do speak to my people while rejecting those that don’t. Now put Islam in the picture and the very real cultural imperialism that exists within the Muslim community, and you have a lost people.

You have a people who are already down and doing all they can to pick themselves up – yet continually getting kicked back down by people who claim to be their brothers and sisters. 

It’s easier for people who have such rich cultures to shun American culture entirely. In fact, I do not blame them. If I had some other culture that I could adhere to, I most probably would. I travelled the world for 12 years looking for that culture but instead what I found were different manifestations of the same problems (obviously not as grand) as I found in America. So I was then left with a choice. If all cultures have both positives and negatives then it would make sense to accept the fact that I am American now by design from God and take the good aspects of it and leave the bad.

I’m not an “Uncle Tom”. I’m a man that believes in fighting for my people. And a major issue plaguing my people is that of having no real cultural identity and the self hate that comes along with that. I tried to commit suicide when I was 18 years old because of identity issues.

We of all people understand the systematic oppression that certain aspects of the government impose on all people (at home and abroad). But all we can do is take what’s good and then work hard to fix the ills that we are also victims of. I want social justice just as much as everyone else. I just don’t want to have to not exist to get it. I don’t want America to disappear, I want to make it a better place. I don’t want my children to go through the same identity issues that I went through. I don’t want them to feel the pain I feel. I want them to be strong, confident, Muslims that fight for social change.

I am an American Muslim and no amount of arguing how that is an impossible dichotomy will change that. I don’t have a choice. I am who I am, regardless if people would prefer that I was something else. My story is not over and it is certainly not unique. There are many people from many different backgrounds who are struggling in one way or another. They don’t need to be told who they are or who they can’t be, especially by people who haven’t cared enough to take the time to find out the slightest thing about them first before passing judgement. My father once told me: “You influence every person you come in contact with. It is up to you whether or not that will be a positive influence or a negative one.” May we all be of benefit to ourselves and others and may we all realize the potential for greatness that lies within each one of us.

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I Finally Knew Why I’m Here – A Young Canadian Hindu Reverts to Islam

September 10, 2011 in Revert stories

I was born and brought up in Toronto, but my family is from an Indian background.

A lot of my life had to do with I guess a mix of Canadian culture as well as at home the Indian side of things. So I grew up knowing my culture, knowing my language and knowing the religion of my parents very well.

I grew up in a temple and I would always go to summer camps and Sunday School and always go to prayers and so on. So, I went through a lot of “culturalization” in both the culture of my parents and the culture that I was growing up in at school.

I went to a high school over here in Toronto. I was a very studious person but I also had my fun on the side. I was really into music. I used to play guitar for eleven years.

How I Became a Muslim

When I look back over how I came to Islam, it was really different from a lot of other people because I didn’t think I had any kind of problems or emotional component that was leading me towards the truth. Since I was young, I just didn’t feel right in the religion of my parents although I was brought up in it. Actually at one point of time I was a very ardent defender of it and I was almost staunched you can say but that staunchness was like a shell, it was very hollow and it was only because I was trying to defend myself in a place where I guess people would attack that faith a lot for different aspects.

I just never got down with the idea of the many gods or the idol worship, it just didn’t fit right with me. Also, there were numerous different explanations which were not fitting well in terms of science. I wasn’t satisfied that the truth was there although there were many good teachings and I had to clarify that values and beliefs are found in every religion.

After I left the religion of my parents when I was just starting my teenage years, I came across the Bible and Christianity. I read the Bible and it was beautiful because I came across this idea of one God, I think it was in the Old Testament that I came across this idea of one God. And that helped me and the way that this God was so benevolent, and at the same time it was like the might of God that really attracted me towards this, and the concept of prophets who were the men who gave you the message and were not divine themselves, and this is the Old Testament I’m talking about and this really really attracted me toward that. My search kept on going from there.

I went to the New Testament and read it. Again I was really happy with the values that I had found and I fell in love with the character of Jesus, but at the same time I just couldn’t accept it into my heart, it didn’t fit for me. That’s when I started to cast off all religions, and I became atheist from that point in time.

But after a while I couldn’t force atheism upon myself because I knew in my heart and just from the logic around me that this whole creation was created by some awesome being. And that’s what led me to go to any spiritual buzz I could find; a Buddhist circle or a Catholic church or a Sikh temple or even sometimes a Hindu prayer with my parents. The only religion I never actually bothered to look into was Islam.

My parents are from India and from a Muslim city in India, so we always grew up knowing about Islam, although not the belief itself but the lifestyle of a Muslim and the Islamic culture. And the thing is we always had a lot of misconceptions that were going around. So whenever I grew up knowing about Islam, I was always centered around certain conceptions, like misconceptions about terrorism or the rights of women. These were always issues that held me back from wanting even to look into the religion.

A lot of my friends in high school, actually some of my best friends in high school, were Muslims. Although they were not practicing Muslims at that time, I never got the message of Islam through their actions because we were doing the same things. Only once that I came to university and I found that it was a place I guess where you could open up your ideas a little bit more, question yourself and question those around you. I actually came across a book about Science in the Quran and I was doing a B.Sc. at the time and I decided to take a really critical look at what this religion was  saying.

In terms of a defining moment, I can definitely say that the minute I came across a scientific fact in the Quran my thinking style is very rational, I like to think based on facts rather than emotion because I’ve done a lot of emotional religious activities in different groups and I knew that the truth wasn’t only an emotional component but it was a logical rational component. I needed to find a truth that was consistent and rational all the way through. When I came across reading books about science in the Quran that started to propel me towards finding all about the religion, but definitely the defining moment was the day that I took my declaration of faith (the shahadah).

Life After Accepting Islam

After I became Muslim, I told my parents and everyone around me about my conversion very shortly after. This started to pick up on me a little bit because I started to grow a beard and something like that. They have the same misconceptions that I had. I don’t blame them at all, actually it’s an innocent ignorance where they had these misconceptions and nobody had explained to them and reached out to them as to what the truth and beauty of Islam really was. So, when my family reacted slightly negative towards me, I knew it was just their emotional reaction and it was not their understating that I have become a better person and why I made that change.

When I became a Muslim there was no real support network or social web to kind of guide the new Muslims into their religion. There wasn’t a big machine to propagate the truth about the religion. This is where I think my personal contribution can come as I’m also trying to know about the religion everyday and while I do that I’d like also to teach others and make the transition as easy as possible as well to let people understand that when they become Muslims they don’t lose their identity. They are still who they are, they still have their interests and their likes and their dislikes. I’d like to make it easier for the families to let them know that these persons are still them; their son or daughter or brother or a sister and the only thing that changed is their outlook. They’ve just come in touch with the greater reality.

I think the biggest things that Islam has done for me is first it gave me satisfaction in my heart that I finally understand why I’m here and why this universe was created so I feel in sync with nature itself around me, I feel in sync with every human being and all of nature even in all animal objects is beautiful. It’s a beautiful feeling to wake up every morning to think about God and to have in mind every morning the miracles that He has given to us as well. I think that I developed a respect to every single human being, animal… you name it. Islam is a system of rights in many ways. I’ve learned to respect my parents more, respect my neighbors more, respect people from other faiths and other cultures more.

I think this kind of respect is needed especially in the world today where we have to heal a lot of wounds from the past.

Watch brother Abdallah describe his journey to Islam

9/11 Curiosity Leads Americans to Islam

August 31, 2011 in Revert stories

Shaken by the 9/11 attacks and the ensuring hostility against Muslims, the curiosity of many Americans to know more about Islam have led them to embrace the faith.

“It seemed kind of crazy to do,” Johannah Segarich said, the Huffington Post reported on Thursday, August 25.

“I was a middle-aged professional woman, very independent, very contemporary, and here I was turning to this religion, which at that point was so reviled.”

Segarich was stunned by news that the 9/11 attacks, which were claimed by Al-Qaeda group, were carried out by some Muslims.

“What kind of religion is this that could inspire people to do this?” Segarich recalled her first reaction to the news.

Seeking answers, the American woman decided to have a deeper look into Islam by studying the Noble Qur’an.

“I came to the realization that I had a decision to make,” she recalled.

A few weeks later, the Utah-born music instructor began studying Islam.

In just a few months later, she decided to pronounce the Shahadah (proclamation of faith) and embraced Islam.

Segarich is not alone.

Angela Collins Telles decided to embrace Islam after seeing the anti-Muslim frenzy grew after the 9/11.

“I saw my country demonizing these people as terrorists and oppressors of women, and I couldn’t think of anything further from the truth,” she said.

“And I felt a need to stand-up and defend them.”

“But then I realized that I couldn’t argue without knowledge.”

At this point, Collins Telles began studying Islam to get a better understanding of the faith.

After an in-depth study, she decided to become a Muslim.

“The concept of God was the most beautiful thing, and that concept fit with what I believe,” she said.

Chicagoan Kelly Kaufmann had a similar experience when she had to defend Muslims against accusations of being anti-peace.

“That’s when I realized, if I’m taking this personally, I think I must be ready,” she said.

Kaufmann decided to study Islam after being criticized by her relatives for volunteering for President Obama’s presidential campaign because they believed he is a Muslim.

“Once I realized that’s where my beliefs aligned, I had that big uh-oh moment that a lot of people have when they realize, ‘Uh-oh, the (religion) I align with is the big fat scary one, as treated by the media, and understood as such by the public,” she said.

Concerns

The anti-Muslim frenzy, however, is still a source of worry for many new American converts.

“I guess it will always be a concern until the rhetoric changes a little bit,” said Kaufmann, whose family has been supportive except for an uncle who now forbids his daughter from seeing Kaufmann.

“What are they afraid of, conversion by proximity?”

Trisha Squires, who became a Muslim last month, was also met with some hostile reactions over her conversion.

“The godmother of my children is going to be a Muslim?” she recalled the disappointing reaction of a close friend.

Squires is also worried about the reactions of her friends and her employer over her headscarf.

Although there are no official figures, the United States is believed to be home to between 6-8 Muslims.

A US survey has revealed that the majority of Americans know very little about Muslims and their faith.

A recent Gallup poll, however, found 43 percent of Americans Nationwide admitted to feeling at least “a little” prejudice against Muslims.

Some new converts, however, are unfazed by any hostility.

“I never cared about being accepted,” said Collins Telles, who now lives in Brazil with her husband, who also embraced Islam after meeting her.

“I knew that I had found God, and that’s all I ever wanted.”

Though the exact numbers of converts are difficult to tally, observers estimate that as many as 20,000 Americans convert to Islam annually.

According to experts, the majority of post-9/11 converts are women.

Hispanics and African-Americans, who were already converting well before 9/11, constitute most of the converts.

Serving converts, many mosques have launched programs to help them with learning the Islamic principles: prayer, basic beliefs, and proper behavior.

Vaqar Sharief, who was tasked to create a program for converts at the Islamic Center of Wilmington, Del., estimates his mosque gets four or five converts every month.

Sources: http://www.onislam.net
Also read: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/08/24/post-911-islam-converts_n_935572.html

South African fast bowler Wayne Parnell has converted to Islam

August 26, 2011 in Revert stories, Sport

South African fast bowler Wayne Parnell has converted to Islam after a period of personal study and reflection and will celebrate his 22nd birthday on Friday as a Muslim.

Parnell confirmed in a statement on Thursday that he converted to Islamic faith in January this year and is considering to change his name to Waleed, which means ‘Newborn Son’.

“While I have not yet decided on an Islamic name I have considered the name Waleed which means Newborn Son, but for now my name remains Wayne Dillon Parnell. I will continue to respect the team’s endorsement of alcoholic beverages. I am playing cricket in Sussex and this is my immediate focus,” said Port Elizabeth-born Parnell.

“As I am approaching my first period of fasting, I ask that this special time is treated with respect. I am a young man, a professional cricketer by trade, and while I can appreciate and am grateful for the public interest in my personal life, my faith choice is a matter which I would like to keep private,” said the promising Warriors left-arm seam bowler.

Proteas team manager Mohamed Moosajee, himself a Muslim, said Parnell’s Muslim teammates Hashim Amla and Imran Tahir had not influenced his decision to convert from Christianity.

“Wayne already decided a few months ago to follow Islam,” Moosajee said of the cricketer, who excelled during the ICC World Cup on the subcontinent.

“The decision to convert was his own decision, but I know nothing of the name change,” added Moosajee.

Fellow players, preferring to remain anonymous, said they believed Parnell was very serious about his choice of religion and that he had not touched a drop of alcohol, forbidden to Muslims, since the recent Indian Premier League series.

Supporting Moosajee’s denial of influence by Amla, the players said he had never attempted to convert them to his religion, although they had all been very impressed by the discipline and strict adherence that Amla showed to his religion, by refusing to participate in celebrations with them that involved liquor, staying steadfast in his daily prayers even while on tour, and refusing to wear the kit sponsored by South African beer brand Castle Lager.

In his first two years after making his debut for the Proteas in 2009, Parnell developed a hard-living reputation.

In October 2009, he was kicked out of the provincial side Warriors following an incident in a night club in the city of Port Elizabeth in the early hours of the morning.

He came to limelight when he captained South African Under-19 team in the U-19 World Cup in 2008. He was the youngest player to get a central contract in 2009 at the age of 20 years.

He is the second recent Christian cricketer to have reverted to Islam after Pakistan’s Yousuf Yohana (now Mohammad Yousuf) in 2006.